12/8/09: I received some very
shocking, exciting, miraculous news yesterday....WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!!!! I was told when I was undergoing fertility treatment before Ella that there was basically a one in a million chance that we would ever get pregnant on our own. So, after EK was born, I never went back on the pill or 'prevented' anything from happening. We left it up to God. We knew that if by some miraculous chance that it happened, we would graciously accept that baby with open arms because he or she was
obviously meant to be. So when I complained to Joey last week that I wasn't hungry because I didn't feel good, he asked if I was pregnant...completely joking. I said that I doubted it, but that I really had no idea. (Looking back, the fact that I got so nauseated while browning hamburger should have been a sign). I took a bath after dinner and felt much better. On Sunday, after Ella's party, we sat down to eat and the nausea hit again. I ate anyway and it went away shortly there after. Then, on Monday (12/7/09)...the nausea hit again mid-morning. It wasn't overwhelming, and I didn't have to run to the bathroom. But I
hate being nauseated. So I gave my class an assignment and sat down. I decided to look at my calendar. I keep track of my cycle start dates (mainly so that when we started treatments again, we would have a baseline). My cycles are usually 38-43 days. Yesterday was day 48. Once I saw that, I decided to take a test. I found an OLD test from well over a year ago in the back of a bathroom drawer. It was positive within 30 seconds. Disbelief is the only thing I can say. Complete and total shock. How could this be? I panicked a little too for other reasons...that I'm still a little panicked over, but God will provide for the miracle baby he gave us. So I went to Ella's school for her cupcake party. We went straight to Drug Emporium when we left. I bought 3 more tests, and took two of them. One was positive in 10 seconds, the other in 20 seconds. WOW. Joey came home about 20 minutes later. I had Ella give him two of the tests. He had no clue what she was holding...or why I was filming him. When he took the tests from him, he got a big smile on his face. All he could say was, "REALLY?!?". I have no idea how far along I am. Based on my last cycle date, I would be almost 8 weeks, but since those are not a 'normal' length, I could be as little as 4-6 weeks. I have an appointment with my OB on Monday for an ultrasound. I'm still in shock...not in a bad way, but in a, WOW, did this just really happen, kind of way. Now that I
know that I am pregnant, I'm starting to
feel pregnant, but that could be my head playing tricks on me too. Who knows. I knew within days when I was pregnant with Ella...this is so much different. We are very anxious about the appointment on Monday, and I'm sure I will update this 'yet-to-be-published' blog after that appointment. I am not sure when I'll officially 'post' this, but it will definitely be after Christmas (which is when we are telling our families). In the meantime, I am
trying to keep this news to myself...which is SO hard. :)
12/12/09: So I'm really starting to 'feel' pregnant. Nausea, tired, extreme emotions. I cry over the littlest things. For example, when I was singing to EK tonight, I started getting all teary when I sang 'Jesus Loves Me'. Why? Who knows. Probably because every time I think about her not being my 'baby' for much longer. She's going to be such a good big sister (judging by the way she treats her babies), but she won't be
the baby. Makes me a little sad...but in a good way. Does that make sense? I also realized tonight that we will have a 4-5 month old next Christmas...crazy! :) I'm still in shock/awe over the fact that we are even pregnant. This just wasn't supposed to be possible. God is so miraculous. I wrote
this post a little over a month ago. I was feeling so down and gloomy. We all have those moments, and it didn't last long. Then there was last Friday when Joey and I were discussing the spring when we were going to begin fertility treatments again (yes, because that was the plan). It really makes me laugh out loud at how funny God is. When I was pregnant with Ella, I had
everything planned. Everything. Right down to her induction date and time...3 months ahead of schedule. I had my work schedule all worked out, I had a training schedule for work for my temporary replacement. And wouldn't you know it, God had other plans and I went into labor at 32 weeks. So much for planning! :) Same situation here. And I think it's just as funny. Such a wonderful God we serve. OK, enough rambling for one day. I'll leave you with one lovely thing about pregnancy I was so rudely reminded of today: Pregnancy and grocery stores don't mesh well. As soon as I walked in, I remembered...ugh. Something about all the different smells gets me every time. Ugh.
12/14/09: We saw Baby S today!!!! His/Her due date is August 1st, and I am 7 weeks and 1 day pregnant. Dr. Taylor was surprised when he saw me...when I saw him in October, we planned to meet up again in March to discuss the fertility treatments. I was so happy to see him early! Baby S appeared easily with an abdominal ultrasound, then we saw the (very visible) heartbeat with 'the other' ultrasound. He said that everything looks great so far and that to keep 'doing what I'm doing' until 20 weeks. After that point he may change my activity level or put me on more medication. Since I dilated to a 4 (and my water almost broke) at 32 weeks, he's going to start monitoring me much more closely earlier in my pregnancy. We discussed the different ways he may do this but said not to worry about anything now and we would worry about it when we get there. Joey and I felt so much relief after being there. It's very 'real' now. We've started planning out how we are going to tell everyone. So exciting because our families have NO clue this is coming! Hehehe! :) I'm also looking forward to telling my group of girlfriends at MM's post-Christmas party on January 3rd. After that party, we will probably make the 'BIG' announcement...and I can't wait! I'm terrible with these kind of secrets....
1/1/2010: Happy New Year! We had a wonderful Christmas and it is such a relief that all of our family knows now. I have to say, it was easier keeping the secret since we didn't see many people since we found out (prior to Christmas), but it was such a weight off my shoulders revealing our
big news. We gave everyone the framed picture. My parents were first and my moms reaction was EXACTLY what I thought it would be! I was so nervous because they weren't coming to LR until Christmas morning and NWA got snow/ice on Christmas Eve, but they made it anyway! Next was my Nonnie and Papa. Nonnie's reaction was, well, memorable. They really are happy for us, just the first words out of Nonnie's mouth wasn't what we thought they would be...but we all laughed about it a few minutes later. :) Mimi was next on the list. By this point I was exhausted and feeling horrible, but I faked it the best I could. Mimi did ask me at one point during the 3 hour marathon of present opening (you have to know our family to understand why it takes so long...and there were 20 of us there too) if I was ok (which I wasn't....felt horrible), but I lied. :) The picture was the last one and she caught on within 5-10 seconds and also had a fantastic reaction...which, if you know my Mimi, she always has expressive reactions anyway. On Sunday, we drove to Winthrop for Christmas with Joey's family. Joey's parents each stared at the picture for at least a minute each (Joey actually timed them), before we made them give it to Renae who had a great reaction as well and spread the news. I'm looking forward to Sunday when we tell my 'Mommy' friends, then on Wednesday when I'll tell my 'Girls Night Out' friends.
My belly isn't going to allow me to keep the secret much longer. I'm definitely starting to show. I did go out and buy a few things, and the bulk of my maternity clothes should be here on Sunday from NWA. I'm in major need of my Bella Band since I can't button any of my pants. However, I have never minded wearing maternity pants (love those elastic waist bands!), but I do love my favorite jeans too!
1/7/2010: Well I have told most everyone that I wanted to 'in person'. A few people got skipped, but I've told them via phone/email/text. We are just waiting for our appointment on Monday so we can 'tell the world'! Can't wait! :) Last night I
finally uploaded all the Christmas pics off my camera and I'm starting to sort through them. Here are our 'announcement' pics!!
Everyone that was told on Christmas day, received this picture in a frame
Not exactly the first reaction I expected, but at least we can say she was surprised!
Now she's happy...still not sure that Papa figured it out yet.
Mimi was next! Now, some of you know how close Mimi and I are. I absolutely LOVE her reactions in the pictures. They truly show how surprised and excited she was. I love my Mimi!
A few days later, we went to Winthrop to share the news with Granny and Poppi and Renae
She made this same face when we told her we were pregnant with Ella. :)
So there you have it...our big reveal!! We are SO excited and can't wait for our new little bundle to arrive!